Re: Zerathule
Posted: Sat Oct 20, 2012 1:17 pm
By now, this is long overdue and It's about time that I explained and answered for what I did.
While my intentions where intended to be nothing more than a harmless quip, due to my shortsightedness, the fallout from it was far more than I ever expected at the time. However, it does not justify what I did then and in the past. The well deserve ban was most likely the resulting accumulation of many, many, offenses that where never arbitrated or weighed. Simple put, I got power hungry; I constantly bent the rules and manipulated people into going along with it because I had a arrogantly held onto an ideal of self entitlement. What I did was the last straw and no amount of good-naturedness would counterbalance my destructive actions. I needed to be banned.
I am not sure if any amount of pleading would even begin to mend my relationship with those that had to suffer my tirade, and saying "sorry", while a start, is a drastic understatement. With that...
I am sorry. I'm sorry for being an arrogant self entitled douche, I'm sorry for abusing the power entrusted to me, I'm sorry for abusing Nicolu's power that would normally result in an account ban, and I'm sorry for not setting a better example for the more impressionable members.
I am not above the rules and I aptly deserve any punishment that is doled out.
I would like for things to go back to way they where before, I want to keep fabricating new and exciting projects to improve the server. I love making things that make people drop their jaws on the floor in amazement, it has always been my goal, and I would wish for the opportunity to continue that. With a humbled ego, I would request that my transgression would be pardoned, but not completely forgiven, so that I would be able to rejoin MCJ but still be reminded of place in the community.
Thank you.
While my intentions where intended to be nothing more than a harmless quip, due to my shortsightedness, the fallout from it was far more than I ever expected at the time. However, it does not justify what I did then and in the past. The well deserve ban was most likely the resulting accumulation of many, many, offenses that where never arbitrated or weighed. Simple put, I got power hungry; I constantly bent the rules and manipulated people into going along with it because I had a arrogantly held onto an ideal of self entitlement. What I did was the last straw and no amount of good-naturedness would counterbalance my destructive actions. I needed to be banned.
I am not sure if any amount of pleading would even begin to mend my relationship with those that had to suffer my tirade, and saying "sorry", while a start, is a drastic understatement. With that...
I am sorry. I'm sorry for being an arrogant self entitled douche, I'm sorry for abusing the power entrusted to me, I'm sorry for abusing Nicolu's power that would normally result in an account ban, and I'm sorry for not setting a better example for the more impressionable members.
I am not above the rules and I aptly deserve any punishment that is doled out.
I would like for things to go back to way they where before, I want to keep fabricating new and exciting projects to improve the server. I love making things that make people drop their jaws on the floor in amazement, it has always been my goal, and I would wish for the opportunity to continue that. With a humbled ego, I would request that my transgression would be pardoned, but not completely forgiven, so that I would be able to rejoin MCJ but still be reminded of place in the community.
Thank you.